The Phone Call ....#1

Joe and I were supposed to be attending a Corporate Travel Agent meeting in LA for the weekend which I cancelled on Friday due to a cold I couldn't shake.

Then Saturday morning at 7:30AM my cell phone rings with a 909 Loma Linda number.............................. for some reason I was already awake....unusual for me these days. I looked at it and knew. I answer the phone. A voice on the other end says "Hi, this is Lynn, Judith's assistant from Loma Linda Transplant." and my heart skipped a beat. I took a deep breath and sat down at my desk. Joe was at his across from me and was watching my face intently. Later he told me he couldn't figure out what the call was about.

I talked to her for about 10 minutes, hung up and took a very deep breath and told Joe it was the transplant center and there was a liver match available and I was 3rd on the list for it. There were 2 other people who matched at another transplant center in the LA area that would have first option for it but they wanted me to be on alert......they called it *on hold*. Pack, take care of loose ends and be ready to come to the hospital to be prepped for surgery if either one of the 1st 2 wasn't a good match or their Surgeons didn't want it for their patients for a variety of reasons.

I just looked at him and couldn't move. Neither one of us could. We just looked at each other. I asked him how he felt, he said he didn't know how to feel and neither did I....It was the weirdest feeling. I wasn't excited, wasn't scared.... I was nervous, and anxious. and my first thought was....NOT TODAY!!! I AM NOT READY..... the next thought was SHIT, THEY REALLY WANT TO DO THIS !!!! it just all seemed like a dream. Joey was sleeping in the next room, we woke him up. (how do you tell you son....this could be the day they cut your Mom wide open and see what happens?). He also said he didn't know how to feel....so there we were...early on a Saturday morning wondering what tomorrow would be like.

Lynn had told me that she probably wouldn't know anything until 4:30 that afternoon and to expect to hear from her by then.

So the wait begins.....................................................................................................